The new year has finally arrived and I have a feeling it's gonna be a crazy one. One full of surprises.
Lately, I've had a problem trying to plan out my future...trying to count on certain things to work our certain ways to ensure this and that...blahblahblah. Basically I was lacking confidence in my future, and so when it finally all crumbled down, it hit me pretty hard - and so that naturally turned me to the one person we can all always count on...the Lord.
Today in our testimony meeting at church, I swear every person was speaking directly to me - their words were exactly what I needed to hear; mostly the ones focusing on God's love for us. For you. For me. That through it all - He understands what we're going through. When it feels like we don't have anyone else to turn to - at what seems like our lowest of lows, He is always there. Always.
I don't know why I haven't learned my lesson yet, but I think now, more than times before, I will have to learnt o accept the Lord's plan for me. I have NO IDEA what it is - but that's what's exciting about it all. I have to train myself to let Him work in my life. I have to stop trying to push in MY timetable, when the Lord's timetable rules over that nine times out of ten.
I found this incredible talk by Elder Dallin H. Oaks, talking about Timing. I highly suggest taking a few minutes to read it, especially at the start of this new year. Here's one of my favorite quotes from it:
"Do not rely on planning every event of your life—even every important event. Stand ready to accept the Lord's planning and the agency of others in matters that inevitably affect you. Plan, of course, but fix your planning on personal commitments that will carry you through no matter what happens. Anchor your life to eternal principles, and act upon those principles whatever the circumstances and whatever the actions of others. Then you can await the Lord's timing and be sure of the outcome in eternity."
I'm open for what He has planned for me - do to the fact all MY plans just got completely crushed, I have faith that HIS are going to be ten times better for me this year. Bring it on :)