I was a little confused with what exactly he was asking, so I asked for him to clarify. He explained it as if my best friends were going to make me a collage for my birthday...like a 'Zoe Collage', what would be on it?? What am I super passionate about? WHAT'S MY THING?
The sad thing was that I couldn't really give him a straight answer. I think it set me off a bit. I didn't have an answer like "guitar", or "sewing", or "pottery making". A lot of things filled my mind, lot's of different answers to his questions...but none that I thought were worth mentioning in the moment. I couldn't stop thinking about it the rest of the night...or the next couple days after...
The problem I have most of the time is that I get bored easily. I like mixing it up and I willingly embrace change often in my life. Having a "thing" is hard for me to wrap my head around, because stability and consistency are rare when it comes to my personality. I just really like a lot of different things...
The problem I have most of the time is that I get bored easily. I like mixing it up and I willingly embrace change often in my life. Having a "thing" is hard for me to wrap my head around, because stability and consistency are rare when it comes to my personality. I just really like a lot of different things...
So here I am, after a good 40 hours of contemplation on the matter, attempting to explain to you what MY THING is:
H U M A N I T Y.
That's what I'm about. I like people - watching them, studying them, interacting with them.
I like clothes. Don't label me as materialistic, but I find a passion for fashion and creating my own style. As much as I hate getting dressed every morning, I love picking out outfits...I would call that an art in and of itself.
I like the arts - literal art, visual arts, musical art...that last one especially.
I love music. All kinds. (well except that screamo stuff...) I love finding new obscure artists that no one really knows about yet. Some people may think I'm wasting a lot of time if they were to calculate the amount of time I spend finding/listening/exploring music...but it's what I love, and if I love something, it's not a waste of time, right?
I like learning in general, especially when I can touch it and experience it first hand. I like creating - watercolor and a keyboard are my go-to mediums. I get that from my mama.
Sometimes I wish I were better at a lot of things. I think I keep banking on the idea that after I graduate and even after I get married, I'm going to have a lot more free time to do stuff. Like form interesting hobbies and talents that I just haven't had the time to do these last few years. I hope I'm right in my thinking. All my friends that have been getting married say that they get lonely a lot...maybe my cure for loneliness will be productivity.
So while I may not have a single thing that I am passionate about above all others, I do have passions. And passions are what keep us going. Oprah Winfrey once said, "Passion is energy. Feel the power from focusing on what excites you." Humanity is exciting.
Welcome to the Humanities Zoe ;)
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wow i feel like we are exactly the same person. glad you could put it into words! haha also, i love that you two went on a date. i had no idea that was happening but i'm glad you had a good time!
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